♥LOVERS
FOREVER LOVE: DADONG, XIAOZHU, XIAOGUI.
NEW LOVE: ETHAN AND ZEFRON.
TRULY ADMIRE: JEANETTE, RONALDO, LIN DAN. LEE HOM.
Me, Myself, and I
She is the one and only yijun, or u can call ahjun meimei :D
She just wants to live life to the fullest and make the best out of herself.
She loves her idols, friends and family and of course herself. <3
She hopes to achieve her simple dreams and that includes having a desired career, a good health, and a happy life.
:)
This blogskin was made by Maggie and the material used were taken from Shabby Princess and random japanese graphic sites. Special thanks to Agnes and Stephanie for inspirations on making this skin.
DISAPPOINTED. truly, seriously, utterly, completely DISAPPOINTED. and i simply couldnt help brooding over that particular moment where my mind just went blank. i wished i could have a second chance. one more chance. i just want to prove that i can do it without. any. mistake. i just want to prove it. one more time.
suddenly, i have all the urge to show all the people around me that i am not what they think of me.
suddenly, i have all the courage to do that tiring and time-consuming yet fruitful and meaningful event once again.
suddenly, i have all the determination to charge all the way through just to see how far my potential and capability can take me to.
BUT,
suddenly, i feel so weak that one faint tap on my shoulders will send me falling on my knees.
suddenly, i feel so frail that i couldnt even withstand an insignificant blow.
suddenly, i feel so vulnerable that i might collapse upon a gentle stroke of the breeze.
my double personality reveals itself unknowingly again. and here i am struggling between the two. i hate being contradicting. but we humans always contradict ourselves, dont we? why do we always have to land ourselves in such a terrible and pitiful state. its such a joke. i want to laugh out so loud but i held back. see and i am contradicting myself again. and i hate it. but i just couldnt help it.
i do not like the hustle and bustle of the city yet i always find myself trying hard to squeeze my way through crowded streets.
i wish i can travel around the world but i have my concerns as i will miss home..
i aspire to be that someone but at the same time i dont wish to, as i do not want to carry the burden and stress that follows..
i have someone that i dislike but i chose to endure and give in..
i have someone that i like that i wish to make known but i decided and chose not to...
i have so much to say but i couldnt bring myself to say.
basically i am a self-contradicting coward.
right now, i have nothing to say.. i dont wish to say anything..
yet i have just typed quite a lot that i wanna say.
i shall stop my contradicting entry now but my fingers are still kept busy on the keyboard..
i just want a second chance. i just want to do it again. so that i can stop brooding over it. so that i can get over it.
perhaps, mum is right, i am just. not. suitable. and i do not have wat it takes.
but how can i prove that she's wrong and that i can do equally well to do her proud?
it all leaves to fate and luck, i suppose. such a cruel fact that should've dawned on me in the first place. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
ps: although all of us are prepared and we knew............we still hold on to that hope of grandpa recovering, or at least, stay with us for a longer period of time..
this is a random post with myriad of feelings... i apologise if u find this entry ridiculous, confusing or meaningless.
gals, see y'll soon during dec. i am really looking forward to that final break in dec before last week of feb.....
better late than never~
9:56 pm
Saturday, 8 November 2008Y
well actually all the previous nice and sweet notebook style layouts were created by a particular designer but after using for some time, the bandwidth will just exceed for no reason, at least i do not know what has happened. any kind soul who knows and is willing to tell me why? anw so in the end i have to change my layout again, and this time round, i am not using tat designer's creation anymore and i hope this new one will last for long, as u know, its really troublesome to look for layouts and then re-doing the template yet again. and i do like my new layout too. i think its pleasing to the eyes. comfortable with it. (:
btw, its 8th of november today and its................................
one of my new love ETHAN 阮经天 小天's 27th BIRTHDAY!!!
realised i couldnt stop myself from visiting his forum every now and then to keep myself updated of his news. realised i couldnt stop myself from searching more of his cute and handsome pictures just to make myself satisfied and happy as a result. realised i couldnt stop myself from watching all the latest videos tat featured him and am still desperately looking for more. realised i am going to buy his travel book very very soon even though i am seriously broke. realised i am so anticipating his new shows and movies. realised...... my love for him.......... ....................... ......... ....................
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can never be compared to tat for dadong,xiaozhu and xiaogui. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! trust me, i am still very loyal towards dongzhugui, and xiaotian is just another idol of mine! love his looks, his character(based on the interviews and shows he went), and of cos his acting skills!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAOTIAN!!! wishing u all the best in ur career!! 偶像一哥~~~~~~~<3333
9:43 pm
Wednesday, 5 November 2008Y
i know this song has been released a few days ago.. but i only fall in love with it TODAY. yes only today. haha. listen to peter pan's sentimental rendition, the poetic, touching song and lyrics. (:
this post is dedicated to.............. bestest bud LIM XIAN HUI!!!((:
(we love CO! lol tats like so long ago.. hahahah!!)
HAPPYYYYY 1*th BIRTHDAY!!!!! hahahah!! (only older than me by 1 yrs old anw=p)
xian, i know u have encountered some problems in school recently which seriously dampen ur mood, making u feel very confused, stressed, miserable, helpless, sucky, crappy... i put myself in ur shoes and i understand how u feel.. well, lets treat it as a challenge in life and learn to overcome it. we're bound to be faced with obstacles and at some unlucky point of time, come across things/plain idotic people which/who ruins our life.. but with each successful surmounting of the hurdles, we turn into a stronger person be it mentally or physically.. show and prove tat u would not be easily defeated nor intimidated.. no matter wat, learn to look on the bright side of life and often, u will achieve a great sense of satisfaction after everything.. so... don be emo ok? u have me who will give u support and be there for u too.. so no worries! (:
most imptly, always STAY POSITIVE and HAAPPYYYYY so tat u can be HEALTHY too!!!
don think too much, don give urself too much stress, don get overloaded with all the work, learn to take a breather, relax, smile, think of me, (ehem* jus jk..haha),think of ur JJ, think of ur family, ur frens, ur loved ones, happy memories, happy occasions.. do not give up!!! JIAYOU all the way!!
ONCE AGAIN, HAPPPPY HAAPPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! may all ur dreams cum true and take lotsa care!!
best wishes from ur buddy cum sister, ahjun((:
9:16 pm
Sunday, 2 November 2008Y
2 BIG events took place over the weekends. if u didnt manage to catch any of them, all i can say is u have missed out on something GREAT.
1st, the taiwan golden bell awards.
ok i have missed this. since starhub cable tv does not have the channel and also though we can watch it online, the connection was lagging like nobody's business and the visual images were distorted.. so i could only catch up with the news thru sina/baidu/forum which obviously did not bring me any mood for excitment..
in any case, i just wanna encourage qiaoen to continue her hard work and perseverance in her acting career as her passion, potential, and capability have long been recognised by all.. she might not be the lucky winner this year but i am sure there will be more opportunities to come.. qiaoen, jiayou!!!
but its still gratifying that "fated to love" managed to clinch the best drama award.. such an achievement that requires the whole production team's effort and spirit is definitely more worthy, fulfilling and heart-warming.. roaring applause and cheersssssss for them!!! i am anticipating xiaotian and qiaoen's respective new drama/movie and hope that they will be nominated for next yr's golden bell or even better, to embrace the title and trophy deservingly .. ((:
2nd: LEE HOM MUSIC-MAN WORLD TOUR 2008.
i know it is often unfair and it might not be accurate to compare but thats the most effective way to put across how i felt about the concert. at least, to me, thats the best way.
on the whole, this concert is better than david tao's april concert, in terms of rendition and arrangments of songs, better than his own "Heroes of Earth" concert in 2006 in terms of costumes, surprises, dance, visual effects, BUT a slight disappointment being the missing out of very classic and soothing love songs, and more violin and instrument solos.. to put it simply: too many nice songs, too little time to finish singing them all.
but i can still feel the sincerity and the music-man energy, spirit, and will power that were being carried forward. his eye-pleasing looks, amazing talent and impactful voice touched my heart, satisfying all the desire of finding a perfect man, and fulfilling all the criteria of a perfect man. perfect music-man. looking forward to his new album that is gonna be released soon soon soon!!
great shows, great weekends and that results in the great mood i have now.
ignoring the torturous schoolwork and the fact that i have a presentation on tues. yes that irritating asian cine. @#&#$*&@!
