Thursday, 9 October 2008Y
what a joke.
i thought i could depend on myself, my own will, my own determination and power to overcome my illness. but ultimately tat was just too naive of me. i eventually gave in by visiting the polyclinic and waited for a god-knows-why-so-long 2 hrs queue to consult the doctor.
so now i have 4 kinds of medicine to consume. damn.
that goes to show how WEAK i am. yes i am.
anyway. sch's gonna start next mon. in just 4 days time.
a part of me is earning to go back to spend quality time with my frens in sch with that "don't wait till you step into the working society tat u start to regret not cherishing ur teenage schooling life" mentality, rather than staying at home rotting away with nothing better to do..
but another part of me is resisting the impending pressure and stress that will be arised from the intensive asignments+projects period once sch reopens.
so yes i am trapped in this self-contradicting circle of thoughts..funny ya.
but in any case, i just hope everything goes on smoothly for me next semester, to be more exact and precise, my last sem in np.
realise how time flies, and looking back at the numerous experiences i have been thru for the past 1 and a half yr.. well, not a good time for nostalgia. yet, i guess.
just to round up, i have had a pleasant hols. and mainly becos of radio 1003.
i will miss the days spent at the studio, on stage, at dragonfly, at the restaurant, EVERYTHING tat concerns radio 1003 and the DJ haunt. seriously. i will miss it. and of cos i will miss all the DJs there. especially kemin and ahken. double K. what a coincidence. they are all fun, friendly, lovely pple. how i wish time will just stop at the most wonderful moments in our lives. perhaps its not just reality tat is cruel. time is cruel in iteslf. but oh wells, time and tide waits for no man.. that is a kind of cruel reality isn't it?
so do not hesitate and grab hold of the precious moments u have now, appreciate and cherish everything u own now, spend ur time wisely, spend everyday to the fullest, and remember, not to leave behind any room for regrets.
luckily, there are always my idols to motivate me. whenever i on my laptop/flip my hp to see my dadong/xiaozhu/xiaogui as my wallpaper, it just brightens up my day.. whenever i on my msn to see my dp.. not forgetting to catch baifenbai, browse thru my pics folder.. forums and blogs to see their faces, to be informed of their latest news and updates, to feel their existence just gives me the strength to move on.. you dont just love them becos they are eye-candies worth admiring but becos your spirit will naturally be boosted when they appear before ur eyes..and to put it simply, they make u SMILE.. that is why i love my idols so much.. and not just remaining at the superficial level of being a plain fanatic..
they are the ones that keep me going along this tough and long stretch of road..
do bear this in mind, no matter what, you will never be alone. there will always be pple who will be there for u, who will stand by you, be it mentally, physically, or silently to give u all the support they can..
for me, it will be my friends, my sisters, my family, my idols and yeps radio 1003. (:
for them, i will strive for the best.
jiayou and take care pple!! =D
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